Monday, July 31, 2006
thanks cus for coming out though u said u are mia-ing .. lol..unhappiness is a part of life.. but once its over.. forget it.. dun look back.. look forward.. i will look forward to my goals in life =) get over the things tht happened recently and move on with life.. as a friend.. im hope u will get happiness frm him too =) been talking to quite alot of ppl... realised life is never fair.. some may be good looking some may be not gd looking.. some fat some skinny.. some might attached but unhappy while some might be unattached but happy and vice versa.. blabla~~ taken frm a show " time doesnt make u understand a person.. 7 years doesnt mean i understand u alot.. " so nvr say i noe u for so long sure understand u..hahas.. cause u nvr noe.. u dont.. i've set my goals.. i will achieve it slowly.. and all of it.. =)
What a feeling!
Sunday, July 30, 2006
i laugh cause i dun wanna cry... i smile cause i dun wanna sigh.. ppl say.. god always lets u meet many wrong ppl.. before meeting the right one.. so you will know hw to cherish her when u meet her.. oh god.. can u feel wad im feeling? i lost my appetite.. i lost my sense of direction.. i walk aimlessly.. i feel like a drifting soul now.. empty inside.. why ... its always like 1 year + .. den nxt.. something will happen to me.. something thts so hurting.. the cut is deep.. i dun feel the pain on my skin.. cause.. the pain inside me.. is much worst.. brought this upon myself.. im a dumb fucker.. cant even let a girl noe that i like her.. dun even have the fucking courage to talk.. and i say i can talk well.. with every setback u gain an experience.. yea sure i did.. i always did gain something.. like gain knowledge of how a bloody stupid idiot i am.. and after tht i will tink to myself.. if only time can be turned back.. if only.. wtf man.. frm e first time.. all of them.. the pain.. the memories.. will follow me forever.. sometimes.. once its too late.. there's really nth u can do.. some truths will never come to light.. i don understood any of them.. i never did.. i dun even understand myself.. i lost myself.. im jus an empty shell nw.. i really cant take it anymore... if im gone.. find me by the beach.. my soul shall be the breeze.. my blood shall be the sea.. i really lost myself .. hais
What a feeling!
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Now and forever
I will be your man
If you let me be =/
lost my appetite
lost my breath
lost myself
lost YOU
What a feeling!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
feng..
HAISsssss...
lol
What a feeling!
Monday, July 24, 2006
di yi chi
first time i said i like u ... my breath stopped but my heart trembled
first time i held ur hands .. lost my directions , didnt noe where to go
first time i kissed u.. my breath trembled and my heart stopped
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rw2L5nHpRz4&NR
this vid nt bad.. self edited.. and quite nice.. hahs.. ok im bored.. lols.. gonna study tmr =x
im working hard! although life is getting abit tired recently.. =/
What a feeling!
Friday, July 21, 2006
lols.. 2nd week of sch den pon twice alr.. hahs.. but sch quite fun la.. getting to noe more ppl.. hahs.. and my bloody group for all e projects is a freaky group la.. cause e group is filled with freaky ppl like me.. hahas.. starting tot .. wa sians all guys group.. but nw.. our group ppl considered the closer groups amongst class.. woots.. and its fun.. hahahaha.. on e way back jus nw.. met pri sch fren.. lol.. den talk like super long lost frens.. got to know frm him tht my pri sch batch gonna organise bbq.. lols.. will be like another fun activity.. hahas.. suddenly realise i gt quite alot of frens! hahas.. and one last thing.. shir..
IM REALLY 17 !!!!
What a feeling!
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
new song on blog - only one by yellowcard
Only One
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
What a feeling!
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
lol.. went to sch quite early today.. but went to eat b4 class.. in e end late -.- den class was super full.. had to sit in front... dots.. anyway.. daniel tan is COOL .. hahas.. best lecturer.. lol.. teaches rather differently frm other teachers... and he teaches us how to play stocks.. lol.. follow him n be rich ass.. hahs..
time flew past and gone.. but u'll always remain there .. in here..
What a feeling!
Monday, July 17, 2006
ok ... in my class.. i dun look local .. dun look 17 and look like a smoker... lol.. bought my shoes today.. lol.. thanks cus.. hafta go sch later.. sians.. and only e 2nd week nia.. lol..
i wanna wear contacts =/
What a feeling!
Sunday, July 16, 2006
things tht are related to u somehow keep appearing beside me.. or rite in front of me.. lol.. numbers,names,things.. whenever i see or hear.. let me rmb u.. lol.. isit u're on my thoughts so much tht things related to u keep appearing.. hahs.. and its getting freaky.. lol.. turn my head.. exactly e numbers.. lols.. but .. no use saying ba.. we r drifting apart alr =/ nw its sch more important.. hahs.. watched dead man's chest today.. quite a nice show.. guess the 3rd episode will be quite interesting.. lol.. shall wait for Long Hu Men to come out.. sounds and seems like a superb action show.. lol...
What a feeling!
Saturday, July 15, 2006
sometimes.. dun say things tht curses u urself or cursing the relationship between u and ur fren.. cause one day.. it might jus come true... because.. i tink.. mine jus came true.. and.. it isnt really a gd thing.. hahs..
heys girl.. i cant take my eyes of you
只不过想好好的爱一次啊 ..
给我你的爱
What a feeling!
Friday, July 14, 2006
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one
What a feeling!
Thursday, July 13, 2006
sometimes.. i jus wanna msg u.. but ... suddenly.. i pick up my fone.. key in ur number.. and i got stucked at the msg part.. sometimes.. really stucked for 5 - 10 minutes.. dunno wad to send.. but i really wanna msg u.. hahs.. i miss the old us.. maybe one day god will let me noe wad a girl is thinking ... wad she wants .. wad she dunwans.. and FYI: psychologist isnt someone tht can read ur mind.. its someone tht can link to something from the things that u think.. its just someone that interprets ur thoughts.. and they arent reading ur mind.. hahas..
What a feeling!
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change
Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..
You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...
I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to
So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do
Yeeaah....
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone...you're gone.. you're....
Gone
Ohhh...
Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh...
I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
You're gone..
You're gone..
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
You're gone..
But the truth remains
You're....
What a feeling!
Monday, July 10, 2006
hahs.. sch started.. lost my pool comp on sunday.. nt very sad or wad.. some experience gain.. today sch.. quite funny la.. on e way to sch.. took 89.. then was like quite urgent nature's call already.. then reach hougang inter.. wanted go toilet first.. but scared miss my bus.. so din go.. later on 74.. i realised i forgot the journey was like 1 hour +++ ... and so.. WAS LIKE SUPER URGENT.. burst anytime.. lol.. but in the end alight bus rushed to sch's toilet la... didnt pee on my pants.. class quite big.. 70+ ppl.. but still ok.. can concentrate.. hahas... new place .. new friends.. new classmates.. hahs.. though i always advise frens bout relationship , life .. bla bla.. when it comes to myself.. im real craps.. hahs.. im always stucked within myself.. u brought me up to the top.. then u pushed me down all the way.. i cant stand up already?? .. cant pick myself up.. im trying like super hard to erase some memories.. but.. i really cant? like in those drama shows.. they walk back to the place tht they went b4 with ppl tht left them memories.. kinda appear in their mind? .. everytime i go past the place we went b4.. i can really sense it.. our existence thr b4.. hahs.. im trying to keep myself happy and i hate being alone at night at home.. cause i tend to think?.. hahs.. im mad when im with friends.. make myself laugh like crazy.. laugh n laugh.. but after laughter... everything goes back to normal.. i dunno whr am i in u.. do u still take me as ur gd fren? or even a fren.. hahs.. things have changed.. i enjoyed the times with u.. really did.. hope u did.. hahs.. but nw.. like an invisible barrier?.. lol.. i cant reach out to u anymore.. u and i now are like from different worlds.. and even hw hard i try to reach out to u.. u dun seem to even wanna talk to me.. hahs.. is this e end for us? u say u dun wanna lose e frenship.. but .. u also dun seem to do anything to make this frenship last? hahs.. i dun even noe wad you're thinking already.. i dun even noe whether am i ur fren... or jus.. another person tht stepped into ur life.. and left.........
What a feeling!
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
oh man.. would love to get a zen vision asap.. hahas.. 629 bucks.. after offer.. dots.. pretty ex.. but .. super nice.. hahs.. can watch movie + music.. comp is coming up this weekends.. 500 bucks here i come.. lol.. - I Just Love DupeX - =)
I thought you were my fairytale A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
What a feeling!
